More Than A Diet

"You have circled this mountain long enough.  Now turn North." Deuteronomy 2:3

Another week had passed and I once again was searching for a verse to study and place in my heart this week.  I know it is an odd pick and one that only God could have lead me to and give me the guidance on why this verse now at this time.  I have been struggling to lose my Addy weight for a year now. Although this time last year I wasn't succeeding due to the uncontrollable way I eat when I am emotional. I gained more weight after her than I did when I was pregnant with her. It was a hard road to be down and with a wedding and other events I want to be ready for approach I figured I need to give it a valiant effort once again.  So I started on Weight Watchers a month and half ago.  After losing the same 3 pounds about 4 times I decided I need to figure something else out. That was when I came across this book. It is called Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst.  I was very leery at first to get it. But after I sampled the book on my Kindle (which I love) I had to give it a try.  So I downloaded it and started reading it.

I must say it is has gone beyond my expectations it is pretty good and it actually gives Biblical implications and examples that helps me see it through a totally new light.  I don't feel shamed into this journey but see it as given God yet another piece of my life that I felt like I need to control.  It has helped me see things in a different light.  But anyways something I was reading in it yesterday got my attention and I couldn't get it out of my head.  She was talking about how we get stuck in these ruts of eating. In these bad habits and when we give up or have a bad day or just don't feel like struggling with it all anymore we revert to the old bad habits and end up back at the starting gate. I have done this many times in my life and get frustrated more and more when I wind back in the same spot.  Anyways she talks about this verse and how it can bring on a new way of looking at this struggle.

The verse was a statement from God to the children of Israel. After wandering for 40 years in the desert with out crossing into the promised land He tells them they need to stop all the games and all the wondering and just rely on Him and He even gives the proper time line, NOW.  As I look at this verse I am reminded of all the times I stand at the pantry door looking for something to take this pain away. Something to fill this void something just to sooth the ever so strong ache in my life. Something to sooth these aching, longing arms.  But I am looking at this and realize I am not going to find it in there.  No matter how hard i try.  I might find something that soothes for a moment but that is all. If I can learn to look to God at those times than maybe I can be filled for longer than any food will fill me with.  And along the way I will gain a closer stronger relationship with My Lord. What an amazing thought.  So here I go on another adventure. Although some how I think the effects of it are going to be far more life changing than just the way I eat.