Are We There Yet?

I can't help but find myself asking this question constantly to God. Are we at the spot you want us to be, the spot where we finally get to have a baby to hold and love?  So far I have been faced with the answer I haven't wanted to hear.  I want to be so close I want God to tell us it is Our time to be parents. Our turn.  But yet again I am reminded that His plans are better than ours. His timing is far greater than mine and I have to wait for that time to be right.  I don't like that part, the waiting it is so hard at times. I just want my baby to hold. I just want my Addy here to share life with.

I have been thinking about it a lot lately and realized I have defined myself as a grieving mother who desperately wants a baby to hold and to keep. But also a grieving mother who is learn to let go of things and let God take them out of my hands and into His.  That is a hard and tough lesson to learn and hard way to see myself but so much I have done in the last year and 3 months to the day has defined me as a mother that desperately wants her baby to be here with her.  I have come to realize though in the last few weeks that I need to make a change. I need to stop seeing myself and defining myself as only that. When I do that I am not just putting myself in this box but also God.  He is a part of me and He is grieving with me but that doesn't have to define who and what we are. 


So on that note I decided a few weeks ago to start memorizing a verse a week. That can't be that hard right? I have a whole 7 days to remember it and then move on to the next truth God has for me. It has been pretty amazing even in this short amount of time as to what God has lead me to learn. Look at my first 3 verses and tell me there isn't a pattern, something God is trying to scream to me obviously. 

Week 1

The Lord will work out His plan for my life. For your faithful love, oh Lord, endures forever. Don't give up on me for you have made me.
Psalm 138:8

Week 2

Indeed, the Lord will give what is good, and your land will yield its produce. 
Psalm 85:12

Week 3

And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. 
Philippians 4:19

Some good verses that God has put in my path the last few weeks. I am going to try to keep this up and post all my verses for the week so that I am some what accountable for them in some way. Maybe that will help me in this journey. It isn't easy but God is teaching me and showing me that He has it all worked out and putting my time lines on His plans doesn't work.