Starting Over...Again

I don't really know what has brought me to this place again.  It has been so long since I last wrote anything but yet I find myself wanting to start the process over again...Maybe its the time in grief where I need to let my feelings out and allow God to heal me in away I know only He can. Again.

Its beens a long journey since I last wrote anything and although God has brough us some Joy there is pain in it as well.  Just a short update, since my last post in September of 2011 we have faced alot as a family.  My Dad was diagnosed with cancer in July of 2011. We all had a faith and assurance that God was going to heal him from that battle.  On May 7, 2012 God decided that Dads work here on earth was done and He took him home to be with Him and my precious baby girl. 

In Feburary of 2012 we did find out some every longing news that I was pregnant and was expecting our 2nd Baby!!! We named the baby Jelly Bean until we knew what we where having. We found out the first of May that we were having another girl we named her Becca Sue and on September 20, 2012 that little miracle of perfectness came into our lives.  I don't know what I would do without her. She has brought so much joy and smiles to us all in a time when we needed them most.

It has been a hard journey. Missing Dad in the most precious times is so hard. I don't understand why he can't be here to enjoy his grandbaby. I know he is enjoying far more than anything this earth can offer but it is still so hard to hold her and tell her about the Papa I know she wouldn't get to meet for a long time.  I am determined that she knows him as if he were here with us always!!

Apart from that we have been sent on a new adventure in life as well.  Daniel recieved a promotion, one which the company has never given anyone this young to before, and is now a manager of a Weldon Parts store in Muskogee.  That means we had to move.  We were crazy!! That is all I can say about that. Moving when you have a 2 month old and baby brain still is so hard to do. I know the only way we got where we are today is becasue we didn't do it ,God did it for us. All the details in moving overwhelmed this already tired and confused Mama. But we made it and have settled into our new home in Coweta, Oklahoma pretty quickly. I know God has big plans for Daniel as he works here and learns a new aspect to a job he was already so great at.

A new baby, a new life, a new start. It is good. It is going to have its bumps and wouldn't last long. Life is always changing and you have to learn to live it no matter those changes. You can't fight them they are going to arrive despite what you want or plan. Its not really my life after all its Gods and I will allow Him to take us and give us new starts whenever He wants to. Not all new is bad and I am starting to learn that. After so many sad goodbyes over the last few years I am ready to focus on making happy memories with my precious gift from God.