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Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious.--Andrew Murray It has been awhile since I have last sat down at my computer, contemplating what to write or even if I should write anything at all.  I have a sense that I need to just for my own sake so I  can have it to look back on and rejoice in what God has done and is doing for us today.

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Graduation Cupcake (in case you can't tell it is a wagon:) Tyler's Graduation Cupcakes VBS 2011 It was favorite team night...We all had Giants on even Addy bear! Memorial Day Flowers VBS Hawaiian Night even Kolby wanted in on the action,  Can't you tell he looks thrilled? Family Shot Again... Here it is our summer happenings, so far.  Not very exciting but figured I better

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Our new adventure addy cakes So here is the story.  A short but sweet one really:)  In my grief I turn to the one thing that makes me feel normal and happy. The one thing I have enjoyed doing since I was a child helping my Nan and Mom in the kitchen making cookies. Well eating more of the dough than making the cookies:) But I have grown up enjoying being in the kitchen creating new sweet

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Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious.--Andrew Murray I came across this quote a few days ago when I was a reading the book Why? by Anne Graham Lotz.  This book has been helping me through a lot of the thoughts I have had for so long but never have been able to, or known how to deal with them. There are so many whys in our life

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I lay my “whys?” before your cross, In worship kneeling, my mind beyond all hope, my heart beyond all feeling, and worshiping, realizing that I in knowing you, don’t need a “why”. ---- Ruth Bell Graham  Why?  I have a million of questions running through my mind and can’t grasp an answer to any of them.  That small word seems so crushing and huge right now and it seems to be

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What a week. It hasn’t been all bad in fact it was pretty good most of it anyways.  Then all at once it happened. One incident that happened for a brief moment in my day made the rest of the day a struggle.  It’s funny how one moment can change the course of the rest of the day. It wasn’t that I haven’t had times like this before. We all know I have had a lot of time like this in the

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Its been an emotionally draining week for me. Not all bad most of it good.  We started the week out with Tim and Cindy's wedding on Sunday. It was a perfect day and I pray it was all they wanted it to be. It was a great time to celebrate what God has given us and what he has taken away as well.  At the end of the day I went to bed happy and excited for my brother and his new wife. I know God has

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"You have circled this mountain long enough.  Now turn North." Deuteronomy 2:3 Another week had passed and I once again was searching for a verse to study and place in my heart this week.  I know it is an odd pick and one that only God could have lead me to and give me the guidance on why this verse now at this time.  I have been struggling to lose my Addy weight for a year now. Although this

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I can't help but find myself asking this question constantly to God. Are we at the spot you want us to be, the spot where we finally get to have a baby to hold and love?  So far I have been faced with the answer I haven't wanted to hear.  I want to be so close I want God to tell us it is Our time to be parents. Our turn.  But yet again I am reminded that His plans are better than ours. His timing

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Here I am at this place once again where I am confused, hurt and unsure of the path I have been on.  I haven't had a week like this in awhile. The moments they pass by but for the most part things are going good. I have gotten to place of acceptance of what has happened, or so I thought. But truth be told I am not and once again I find myself weeping on the inside and out for that precious little

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Its been a crazy few weeks with Christmas coming and going and the new year being here and started. I haven't had time to catch my breath and finally the day has come when I can sit here and write again. I am ready for the break however short it might be.  I still have Christmas decorations up and stuff scattered everywhere but all that will be there when until I am done.  Nothing big or eventful

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Its been awhile since I last posted, I have been busy like everyone else is this Holiday season. It has been a strange one so far and will only continue to be that way as the days pass by.  We don't have much planed for Christmas day. I am kind of enjoying the thought of us relaxing taking our time to enjoy it all together this year. We weren't able to make it to Cali, this year and that breaks

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I am amazed at how God is working in our lives for the better. I knew better things were coming and it might just be something small but I am excited about it.   I have been wanting to start something, do something just wanted to help others who have gone through what I have gone through. I know there are a bunch out there and I wanted to help in some way.  The last blog I posted a friend

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Would you dare to believe, that you still have a reason to sing, cause the pain you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that coming-Josh Wilson I downloaded this song a few weeks ago. Forgot about it and was searching through my music and found it.  How appropriate that I forgot about it right? I am sure that was God holding it for me for the perfect time to share it again.  He is good at

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He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.    --Psalm 147:3, NLT  God is showing us His strength today.  After  a fairly hard weekend and a week that I have been dreading the arrival of for awhile now, He shows us this verse.  I got ready to sit down and write in my journal I always start the entries off with a verse and after praying a quick prayer that God would show me the right

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"And the Lord will continually guide you; and satisfy your desire in scorched places..." Isaiah 58:11 I found my journal today.  The one that I have been looking for, the one I started writing in about a year ago. I am so glad I did that now. Although at the time that was all I could do just write down what I was feeling and how things were going but today I can look back on it and know exactly

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Another day, another set of difficult moments, at least for now.  It has been a rough day. Starting when I walked through the door at work.  I got news that a girl from another department had ended up having her baby last night and she named her Madison June. Of course not knowing what they where talking about I heard that name and had to stop a moment. Did they just say what I was thinking they

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Here I am again. As the time get closer to little Addy's first birthday the trauma and pain have hit again.  Not at the extent of what it was but never the less it is still here and still a consistent struggle for the both of us as that day draws near.  It has been a particularly hard week. After a wonderful 9 day visit with my parents it was time for them to get back to there life in Cali. While

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Here we go again….  Another moment in time, another day and another month without our little girl.  I thought I had been doing pretty good. I thought, that was my first mistake to think that I was getting past the grieving part and on to the living life part.  I am sure that to some point we are getting past it all. Trying to make the best out of a situation that we wish would have never

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"In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you."                                                        1 Thessalonians 5:18 Our Peep... A year ago tomorrow will mark one year. One year since he left this world and went to be with our Nan and His Jesus.  I find myself missing him more but finding it reassuring to in a way that he is were he looked forward

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Into the darkness you shine, Out of the ashes we rise, There's no one like you, none like you.... There is no one like Our God.  The word above have been in my head for a few days now.  It wasn't until a few days ago I finally downloaded this song. Being addicted to new music I had put myself on an Itunes restriction. I love to sit down and get new music new sounds to listen to and new stuff

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Its the 20th today.  A day that is normal and uneventful to the world around us. A day that means nothing really but it holds a place in my heart forever. It was this day a year ago that we went to the doctor anticipating the news. It was this day that we went into the lab I layed down on a table and they squirted that warm ( our tech is the best and warms it for you) goo on my belly.  It was

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Change I don't like that word much nor do I like the meaning associated with it. It has been a long year of changes and it only seems to keep coming.  I know that it isn't always a bad thing and sometimes change has to happen for us to get on the right paths and do what God wants us to, but that still doesn't make it any easier.  I know I get this apprehension of change from my Mom's side of the

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I got a job!!?  I wasn't even looking which leaves only one explanation, God.  He has been working on this and has put this job in my path at this time in my life for a reason. I am not sure why and I am not sure what to expect but I had to reply to His offer.  Here is how it all went down.  A few weeks ago when we were in California my husband got a call from his aunt.  She wanted to know if I

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"Knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance." James 1:3 What is Endurance? I know what the dictionary definition is it is the ability or strength to continue or last, esp. despite fatigue, stress, or other adverse conditions. But what does it really mean in life? In our faith? As I was studying today I came across this word and for some reason my eyes just stopped on it.  When I

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It had been a special weekend of just fun and relaxing just me and my man.  That was so good to get away and just hang out with him.  We do alot together but its these special times I cherish the most.  Since Addy our whole perspective on things have changed especially special events or milestones.  We know try to celebrate it all because we never know when the last time we get to do that will be

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Another night and another chance to dream. Lately my dreams have been more strange than ever, starting with my dream at the lake when we were at home.  Here is the low down first. We haven't really watched a lot of movies lately. We use to be the ones that keep up with all the latest, had seen all the greatest ones but in the last year or more we just have been too busy or too tired to sit down

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" When my heart breaks and everything's shakingI'm left alone in the rain,You won't, you won't, won't You won't let me goLife's insane and everything's crazyYou carry me through the painYou won't, you won't, won'tYou won't let me go..."  Addison Road, Won't Let Me Go, Stories One of new favorite songs from a band that I love, the name might have something to do with it:)  I bought this new album

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Fathers Day a day I haven't even really thought about much lately.  It kind of came too suddenly. I wasn't prepared to say the least. I don't know why it surprised me so much. It wasn't like I hadn't thought about it, I had. I even got Daniel a few things and then the day came and it totally blindsided me.  I woke up feeling ok but as the day moved on it got harder and harder to deal with the

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It is a new day, and lots of opportunities to make it a good one.  That is my goal anyways we will see how it goes.  The last few days have been a little better since my last post. Not as many breakdowns, a few but not as many. I guess that comes with the territory of being so far away when you get back you have to grieve the family left behind.  I am sure glad Heaven isn't going to be like that.

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Our Addy... As I sit here thinking about our precious baby girl I can't help but have a tear in my eye.  I miss her so much.  Especially on special days, like when Allie got her degree or when we took what would have been her first trip to Yosemite.  Just stuff like that makes me feel empty like something is missing from all the pictures we took.  All the places we went  there was one thing

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Here I am back again after a few days of fun and laughter hanging out with my family on the lake and at home. It was so much fun and I am so thankful we had a chance to share in that special day with Allie, as she got to celebrate her new accomplishment of being a College Graduate.  I am so proud of her and thankful she is my sister.  It was a special day one I will not soon forget. The time

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I know I have talked about this before but it happened to me again.  Finding my daughters name in unexpected places.  Here is the story... Miranda, my friend, had a party last night and so we were all gathered around having a good time. We had spent the afternoon getting ready for it and it was finally here and kicking in full swing when we finally got to sit down for a minuet.  During that time

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It rained last night.  Not just a little but sudden down pours that lasted a while. I like stormy weather, sometimes. It is nice when it is hot and the clouds decide to burst open and cool us down.  It was one of those kinds of nights last night. Daniel and I were working on setting our stones for our front walk way and about an hour into the adventure it started lightening. Deciding it wasn't

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Well the weekend is over and it is back to the weekly grind.  Another busy weekend behind us and only one more to go before we head to California!! I am so excited and ready to be going home and spending time with family again. I can't wait. But before that we have another week to get through and then a long weekend. We have plans and will probably stay busy like always, but in time like these

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I don't know why but lately I have been thinking about the past, alot. Where I came from what I have done. My life in general. What am I here for?  I always thought it was to be a mother but that seems to be such a small goal compared to others. I don't really feel like I have accomplished it either. Sure I have. I mean no matter what I am still Addy's Mom but to not have her here makes it seem

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Another weekend down.  We were busy yet again. I am not complaining just worn out. I look forward to the weekend when we can relax and hang out together. But most of the time we don't relax but that is ok.  I enjoy the spontaneity of it all. My week days are a lot alike so the weekend give me a break from the norm and I like it. This weekend we did alot.  Even with my sinus infection we still

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Another day halfway over and I still feel like I got hit by a mack truck.  My face hurts and I sound like a man!! So I have a sinus infection. It is inevitable and I knew eventually my body was going to play this cruel game with me again but I wasn't ready.  At least I don't have to get out of bed if I don't want to right?  I wish.  Although they might be tiny I do still have responsibilities and

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I have been very blessed to have so many people thinking and praying for us on that hard day. All of your efforts were not lost and I appreciate all the thoughts, prayers and cards that I received over the last week. They all meant so much to me for so many different reasons. Without them I am sure the day would have been harder than I could have endured.  But I am sure you are all wondering how

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I finally did it. I took Addy's pictures from the hospital and had a professional see what they could do to them.  It was hard.  I didn't think I would be so emotional about it all. I took them in last week and they called at the end of the week to tell me they were ready to be viewed. I hesitated it wasn't something I thought would happen but once I got that news I stopped. I didn't know if I

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She is finally here.  I ordered a doll for Addy in January and she finally made it about a week ago.  I am pleased with her she came out good. I was anxious for her to get here so I could hold her but when I took her out of her box it felt weird to be holding her. Not what I expected.  I have found such comfort in her blanket that this just seemed strange to me but she is here and i love her none

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What a weekend so far.  Miranda and I have been over in Shattuck having a yard sale the past few days. We did good I only brought home 2 things!! I have never had a garage sale where a the end that is all I had left I am very pleased.  Got some spending money for our trip to California next month I am excited and ready to go.  It was a good time and I am glad she invited me to go and participate.

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I had a different kind of day today. It started out like all the others have lately. I have gotten into a good rut and I like it there. I got up worked out, ate breakfast, did my computer work and headed out with Kolby for our walk. A lot to do but I love that my mornings are so planed, i don't have to think about it.  After breakfast yesterday I had sat down to make the long list of phone calls

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After yesterday and the day I had I was just sure today was going to be no different. It seems that days like that come in groves and then they are gone as quickly as they come and I am back to being ok with the terms I have been given.  But today wasn't how I expected. I woke up feeling like I had sleep which is good, it hasn't happened in a while that I actually wake up and feel energized.  I

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I knew it was coming. I knew I was going to have a day like this sometime, it has been awhile. But I am never prepared when they do come. Although I am grateful that they are a lot more farther in between these days it just seems like a step in the wrong direction every time. I am just kind of there all over again.  I don't know why, I went to bed last night with the feelings starting to stir

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I have a story to tell. It isn't that amusing to me but when I told Daniel he thought it was pretty funny.  I didn't find it funny maybe I am too close to the situation.  Here is what happened.  Today as I was riding my bike I decided to take a new path. I got the courage up to ride across the highway to roads I haven't yet been on. From the looks of them they didn't look very challenging and

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Daniel's Mom and stepfather decided they wanted to buy us a tree in honor of our little girl.  That way we can watch it grow since we don't have her here to watch grow.  I loved the idea and was thrilled when they told us about it.  That was in November after it all happened I was still in shock. But when she called a few days ago to say they were going to bring Addy's tree by I couldn't help

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This is Addy's Stone. I love the way it turned out and the fact they were able to get her whole name on it.  Her father took the special time to set it and make sure it was positioned just right so all can see our special little girl.  The ladybugs are for Addy's Nana beacuse she is Nana's JuneBug.

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I had a dream the other night, I think those hot wings we ate had got to me or something. It was quite abnormal as are the majority of my dreams, or so people tell me.  I don't know why I dreamed it but I though I would share it. It started out with Daniel and me being at my parents house. Well we weren't at there house but our house which happened to be near theirs. We were moving in and it was

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Am I glad that Easter is over.  Not that it was a bad day just a hard one.  I sure miss her on days like that.  Being away from family sure dosn't help the situation any at all. But we got through it.  With a few minor meltdowns and time with friends.  It was hard but we are still here after it so we have to move on.  I woke up yesterday feeling like I did the day of her service. I just dreaded

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I have been inspired to ride my bike this week. We started Monday night went on a little ride with Miranda and Ally that night and then Tuesday we went for a 2 mile ride. That was fun, really I am not being sarcastic or anything.  Then last night Daniel and I hopped on our bikes again and went on another little excursion, I am loving it. Although I have never been a good bike rider it is fun. 

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Its hot. Not to say I am not enjoying a little warmer weather but when did we skip spring and go straight to summer? I don't like that part at all. I have been in this house all day with the windows open and the door cracked. Daniel comes home and thinks it is sweltering in here and want to close it all off. Needless to say I reasoned with him and he is going to endure it for a few more hours

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Today has been a eventful one to say the least. Only because Kolby and I got up deciding we were going to start the garden.  A decision I should have though fully about before I came to that conclusion. It has been so nice the last few days just like spring should be.  Last year this time we had tons of snow on the ground and ice to boot so this is much better.  As I got to shoveling and hoeing

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It is such a pretty day outside, besides the wind which by now I should be use to.  Kolby and I decided we would go for a walk. I like that time of day were him and I can just go outside and roam around I love the fact that I have the time and able to do that.  So as we headed out today it was nice. I had my earphones in and the wind at our backs we were just rocking along.  It is always a sign

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Trying to get back into the rut I now know as my life is kind of hard. I had a hard morning yeasterday transitioning from being with my family to being alone again all day. It was an adjustment and one that I have every time we get back from visiting but it is worth it every time, I just prepare for it. As I am trying to get adjusted to the time difference and try to get back on schedule I am

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As I stood in line getting ready to get on my plane from Sacramento to Las Vegas I am greeted by nuns. Three of them to be exact. I found it strange that they were flying let alone going to Vegas. Maybe they are going after there lost friend like on Sister Act 2.  As I chuckle to myself, I get the strange urge that I must tell this strange sight to someone, so I text Daniel. Sure he is at work

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I finally finished, well almost.  I got Addy's roses planted which meant I got the rocks i set out to move by myself moved.  It might not look pretty yet but in a few months I am praying that the flowers will be blooming outside of her bedroom window.  This has been a mighty feet for me.  Those rocks are horrible to move and with only my hands to move them and wheel barrow it has been quite the

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Oklahoma weather, must I say it again, makes no sense at all.  I have been working on moving rock out of our front yard so that I can plant Addy's roses I bought to put under her window. That was my plan for this week so far i worked one day out there in the frigged wind and was going to work out there again and looked out the window and it is snowing!!  What a mess a few days ago it was in the

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I was tagged to answer some questions. At first I just wrote it off. I don't do well with these kind of things. At work I use to get them all the time questionnaires that ask random stupid questions. I hated answering those but played along a lot of the time out of boredom.  The girls at work would wait with anticipation to see my answers because they always thought they were so funny.  (Funny

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Thursday night we had yet another basketball game.  We started to play on a different league now. So we arrive at the game way too early and had nothing to do.  So we wait until some of our other member got there to go into the gym.  Boy was I not ready for what was going to be behind those doors waiting for me. As we walked in the gym is packed, not like church league people actually come to

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I did it, I finally sat down and finished our taxes. What a big headache and stress that is. I hate this time of year mainly because we don't get our forms on time. I have to wait and wait to get it done and that stupid 1099 we have for Daniel's extra work is a pain that costs us almost more than he makes with it.  But I got it done. I hate the fact that we owe money every year this year was

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What a weekend again.  Seems like we have a few good ones and then a hard one. This weekend wasn't too bad. Or at least I didn't think it was until it all hit me Sunday morning early.  We had a busy weekend and I wasn't even aware of the things that were bothering me until it all came into play that early morning.  Sunday early mornings have been hard for me.  That was the time we rushed to the

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I woke up today not feeling very good. Not sick but just feeling kind of down it was one of those days I could feel the struggling start before my feet ever landed on the floor. I was preparing myself for a hard day. Apparently God had other plans for my day. As I sat at the table doing my morning Bible study I saw shadows overhead. Like birds flying by.  Kolby wasn't growling so I figured it

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I had started walking last week.  Kolby loves it I enjoy it so I figured it would be a good tradition to add to our morning rut.  Monday it was cold cloudy and dreary, after Sunday being icy and stuff I knew better than to head out there unless I had to. So we didn't get to go Monday.  Then Tuesday it is sunny and a clear day looks like it is beautiful outside, until you step out there. My feet

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I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned, In awe to the one who gave it all I"ll stand my soul, Lord to you surrender all I am is yours. My favorite song by Hillsong to date. I love that song. Those words are so what I feel everyday. Even through the tears and the heartaches of Addy. Even through the pain of missing her and the moments of fear I get when I think about all the what ifs. He

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So this is going to be a hard one for me to write. It is so sensitive and humbling all at the same time.  I just can't believe it happened and I can't believe I am going to share it. But here we go anyways.  Daniel and I went to the city last weekend for Valentines and to just get away.  Well I didn't tell the whole Valentines story because it is kind of sad, for me at least, funny for everyone

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Here we are again.  Finding it a hard season in our lives. Wondering if anything ever is going to turn around and be happy again.  It seems like when you are down you stay down for so long sometimes it is hard to ever feel like you will ever make it up again.  I understand that feeling all too well.  I understand that sometimes we hurt and feel like nothing is ever going to pick up.  We are

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This weekend has been a whirlwind of events and emotions. Not sure what to think or how to act until I step back and analyze it all.  It just has been hard.  I never even saw it coming. Didn't even think about the effects of our Addy's first Valentines until it was here hitting me in the face.  I don't know why I wasn't even thinking about it.  That is one holiday that Daniel and I both never

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It is amazing how the simple things in life are missed so much when you don't have them.  In August we bought a house.  Probably not the best thing to do when you are 6 months pregnant, at least not one that needed as much work as ours did.  But it was ours and that was Daniels way of nesting before our little Addy was to arrive.  He wanted it to be all perfect when we walked through those doors

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 I was studying the other day about King Belshazzar.  For those who don't know or need a refresher this King was a king in Bible that threw a big party.  During that party he took out and used some of the gold and silver dishes from the temple.  This was not a good thing to do. So while he threw this big bash with thousands of people there getting drunk something strange happened.  During the fun

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I was in the bathroom primping my hair today when I found something that shocked me to the bone. Something so terrifying, it was almost all I could do from screaming in horror.  It was more terrifying than a creepy eight legged spider on my towel.  More scary than leaving my hairdryer plugged in while in the bath. It was a....White Hair.  On my head!!  It was so pure white that when I first saw

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Every year the church has a Men's league basketball team. My husband, although against his will, always ends up playing. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the fact that he is involved, just basketball isn't his strongest game. With his short frame and all he is always the littlest guy out there and always picks the biggest guys to block, when he gets to play. But anyways this has been a tradition every

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Why do people feel like they need to be mean to each other even over stuff that isn't any ones fault? I can't imagine blaming my husband for something he didn't do. But that question is a haunting one that has been circling in my head since I heard it spoke to him.Do we blame each other for what has happened? No!! Should we did I miss something? I feel like God has given us a strong marriage so

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Disney Pixar "Every Superhero has a secret identity. I don’t know a single one who doesn’t. Who wants the pressure of being 'Super' all the time?" I stumbled upon this quote while checking the social network on Facebook. Amazing how you just find things sometime right? I am sure I didn't just find it God placed it in my path but read the quote really read it. That isn't true at all. Maybe in

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Why do people feel the need to talk even when they don't have anything to say? I understand that people are shocked and don't know what to say when they find out what happened with us. I would be too but to hear some of the things that have came out of peoples mouths lately just makes me wonder do people really find the need to talk to cover up there true feelings? The other day I had to

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So it snowed, all day and all night. Needless to say we have a few inches and where stuck at home with no plans and nothing to do. Lucky for us I had made that trip to the movie store, and had asked for that Wii game for my birthday. We have had a good day of being lazy neither one of use even got dressed, besides going outside to play four about five minuets. It was nice. We can't help but

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The weather outside is so dreary. Cold, blowing snow accumulating ice on the ground. It is so bad even Kolby, our spoiled beagle, doesn’t want to get out in this stuff. He sits at the door and just stares longingly at the outside world. I know if it was not so cold he would be out there all afternoon sniffing and having a good time hunting whatever it is he gets a hint of. But to have to sit in

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Its funny how you don't really get the meaning of birthday until you become a parent.  Although at times I still don't feel like a parent, I know I am one and my thoughts have shifted to those more like, gasp, my mothers:) She always made a big deal about our birthdays. Getting the birthday tablecloth out even when I am not there I know she still celebrates in some way. It was nice growing up

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Here is the reality of my life hitting me square in the face again.  This weekend we got a call from a fellow friend. He informed Daniel that the sandstone they had ordered for Addy's grave was in.  Don't get me wrong I am forever grateful to the people who took the time and the effort to order it and all the efforts it took to get it for us. But I knew we were going to have to face it and I

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What day is it today? I can't keep track.  I am so lost most of the time I don't know what day of the week it is or the date it is just funny how some things in life have become very unimportant.  This week has been a different one.  Both Daniel and I got sick at the beginning of the week. I don't wish that flu on anyone. Thankfully Miranda and Adam were generous enough to share it with us so we

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"Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you..." Ezekiel 36:26 A new heart and spirit.  That is good news. He is going to restore us, but make us better than before.  A new spirit one that is going to be able to do things I could never dream of. One that can turn to God through it all.  A new heart too.  A heart that will have more compassion, more love and more

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Despite the date, despite all the struggles we have went throught this week today is a good day.  God is giving us a break from the pain. He has given us a chance to breath. A chance to catch our breath.  We haven't done much.  We tackeled the junk in our spare room.  We didn't get it all taken care of but alot of it is now moved or gone.  Its just amazing how much junk two people can collect

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For the Lord God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.    --Psalm 84:11, NLT God must be trying to get His point across to us.  Today after receiving an email from my Mom she sent me this verse. She received it in her in box and its just so true and right where we are. The words we needed to hear from God and

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It's amazing how God waits for the time when you feel like He is no where around to surprise you with His appearance.  It's just funny to me that at the lowest points in life He always knows when the right time is to surprise you with His unfailing love again.  He never left but you feel like He did, then He reappears. Most of you were there but for those who don't know God did an amazing thing

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Welcome to our blog!!  Daniel and I have decided to start a way of communication with all our friends and family. This way we can share our experience of healing with everyone at the same time. No one gets left out and everyone stays informed. Not that we have that exciting of a life but if you every do wonder what we are up to now you can find out.  It has been a long and hard past few

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